dreams

i have so many dreams, but recently God brought it to my attention that i need to dream BIGGER. i've heard over and over that unless our dreams are too big for us to accomplish on our own, we aren't dreaming big enough. some of my "dreams" are included on my life list. i wrote it a couple of years ago and have happily been able to cross several things off already. others have been eliminated altogether, such as 'appearing on the oprah show', because frankly i no longer care for the lady or have that desire at all. 'do yoga' had to go when i developed a strong belief in not practicing something with satanic origins.

i'm tempted to cross out 'run a marathon,' but that's something i know i could do with training, i just underestimate myself. a lot of the list makes me laugh. what was i thinking with 'get a tattoo'? the girl who doesn't even have pierced ears and loves everything natural? who also included 'learn to wear makeup' on her life list because she only tried wearing that recently? (mind you i did not cross it off, because i still don't know what i'm doing.) yet another that had to go, possibly due to my recent obsession with eating steak, was 'go vegan, at least for a little while.'

i promise the whole life list is not quite as ridiculous as the glimpse i've given you. and if you're interested in helping me accomplish something on the list, i am always accepting donations for my beach house. :) it's that or run a marathon people, i'm just saying.

a lot of my true dreams are still in the articulation stage. they're not something that could be contained on a list so much as things in my spirit that fill me with passion. things that bring me to tears. things that i don't want to argue or yell about because they move me so deeply that it's not about getting a point across, but about seeing lives transformed. maybe what makes us come alive is actually God's life coming to life inside of us. maybe what moves us to the deepest place of emotion is a tiny hint at the emotion God has for those very same things and people. and maybe true dreams feel so personal because they're such a key part of the intimacy God wants to have with us.